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Life
Despite the two years of memories that have filled our lives since you were taken from us, there is not one moment that cannot be eclipsed by the darkness we felt that night. The night that is just still, too much to bear. We have tried our best and hope that we have done your memory justice. Too many victims have had their lives negated by the people who took their lives. Victims are subjected to an indignity in life and also in death as their assailants often point fingers at the deceased, disparaging them in their foolish attempts to thwart the legal system. We hope and most sincerely pray that this does not happen to you.
No matter how much things change, how many good people we meet and we have met many because of you, no matter how much good news we hear. Life is just not the same, the zest and zeal are gone, will it ever come back? We really don’t know, no matter how much fun or laughter there is. We look around at each other and you are not there, life doesn’t get any easier, we just learn to manage better, we put on the happy face more often. We fool more people, more often.
Love
Love is the burden we will always bear, no matter how far away from the tragedy we are. We cry because we care, we try not to waste the precious time we have, we fill it to the brim…just like you did. You lived for the excitement, stress and heartache and were more than happy to pick yourself up and do it again. Then one day you were able to find that happiness and we could see the love and sincerity all over your face but it was short-lived, within a few weeks, you were gone. Love is the burden we carry like no other and we will always do so.
Loss
How do we manage the loss of you, we listen to music that reminds us of you. We like the things you liked, we tell the jokes you told, we dance the way you danced. We hold each other tight, we tell each other “I love you” more often, we see each other more, and we pray for you. We’ve become closer to God. All these things we have to do to make up for the loss of your presence, we try to capture the essence of you, manifested through each of us. It will always be there, they may have taken you from us, but not one person can take away the memories and love we have for you. These things are not lost and one day when our time comes, we will meet again. It will be like you never left, it will be like that night never happened.
FInDiNg yOuR iNnEr sImBa
Just wanted to share with all of you the significance of our most recent post about the circle of life; the Lion King was one of Marcus’ favorite movies growing up. I am sure he must have seen the movie about a hundred times, day in and day out he watched this movie, first thing in the morning he would turn on the VCR…yes the VCR and watch it. He loved it so much he wanted to be Simba for Halloween and his Mom was more than happy to fulfill his dream.
Kindergarten Year at Tranquillity Elementary School
What strikes me is that the movie is about hope rising out of tragedy and I think this is a lesson we could all use right now. Things have been very hard and we need to find strength in each other right now, just like Simba found strength through his friends Timon and Pumba. Be mindful of who you are and where you come from and most of all always be yourself. Marcus was himself through and through and yes he may have been influenced by others at times but he remained his own, very unique self and this is one of the things we will remember about him most.
In the words of Roy Disney this is what the Lion King is about:
“It’s about first of all knowing who you are, you personally inside of yourself and learning to be true to that and learning not to absolve yourself from your own responsibilities.” Roy Disney
So please take care of yourselves and here is a bit of inspiration from the Circle of Life…
The Circle of Life
Music by Elton John, lyrics by Tim Rice
Performed by Carmen Twillie
From the day we arrive on the planet
And, blinking, step into the sun
There’s more to see than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done
There’s far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high
Through the sapphire sky
Keeps great and small on the endless round
It’s the Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life
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