#life #love #loss

Life

Despite the two years of memories that have filled our lives since you were taken from us, there is not one moment that cannot be eclipsed by the darkness we felt that night.  The night that is just still, too much to bear.  We have tried our best and hope that we have done your memory justice.  Too many victims have had their lives negated by the people who took their lives.  Victims are subjected to an indignity in life and also in death as their assailants often point fingers at the deceased, disparaging them in their foolish attempts to thwart the legal system.   We hope and most sincerely pray that this does not happen to you.

No matter how much things change, how many good people we meet and we have met many because of you, no matter how much good news we hear.  Life is just not the same, the zest and zeal are gone, will it ever come back?  We really don’t know, no matter how much fun or laughter there is.  We look around at each other and you are not there, life doesn’t get any easier, we just learn to manage better, we put on the happy face more often.  We fool more people, more often.

Love

Love is the burden we will always bear, no matter how far away from the tragedy we are.  We cry because we care, we try not to waste the precious time we have, we fill it to the brim…just like you did.  You lived for the excitement, stress and heartache and were more than happy to pick yourself up and do it again.  Then one day you were able to find that happiness and we could see the love and sincerity all over your face but it was short-lived, within a few weeks, you were gone.  Love is the burden we carry like no other and we will always do so.

Loss

How do we manage the loss of you, we listen to music that reminds us of you.  We like the things you liked, we tell the jokes you told, we dance the way you danced.  We hold each other tight, we tell each other “I love you” more often, we see each other more, and we pray for you.  We’ve become closer to God.  All these things we have to do to make up for the loss of your presence, we try to capture the essence of you, manifested through each of us.  It will always be there, they may have taken you from us, but not one person can take away the memories and love we have for you.  These things are not lost and one day when our time comes, we will meet again.  It will be like you never left, it will be like that night never happened.